Imagazini yoncwadi «oragora». 2004. Umzekeliso: UVíctor Mógica Uthelekisiwe.
Sele ufumene eyona khadibhodi ibalaseleyo; Nje ukuba iziphumo zewayini zixutywe kwaye uve ukuba umkhenkce unamathele emqolo kwakhona, ikhadibhodi obuyifuna ngolangazelelo eyeka ukudlula ngengubo entle ukuze ube ngumnyango wefriji. Kwaye ungaphakathi kwifriji, umzimba wakho owoyisiweyo uyi-hake eyodwa ugcinwe umkhenkce kubusuku obumnyama.
Nangona ndikuxelela into ibenye, nje ukuba usinde kwisikhenkce sakho sokuqala awusoze ufe, nokuba ungoyena mntu ufuna ntoni. Abantu abaqhelekileyo bayazibuza ukuba siphila njani ezitalatweni ebusika. Nguwo umthetho womeleleyo, onamandla kunabo bonke ababuthathaka.
Bendingasokuze ndicinge nokufika apha, bendilicala elilungileyo leli lizwe likongxowankulu. Ukuphila ngemali yenceba kwakungeyonjongo yam yekamva. Ndicinga ukuba imeko yam inento yokwenza nesibakala sokuba andizange ndiyazi indlela yokukhetha umntu ofanelekileyo. Andizange ndikhethe umhlobo olungileyo; Andizange ndikhethe iqabane elilungileyo; Andizange ndidibane nelona qabane libalaseleyo; Isihogo, andikhange ndikhethe unyana olungileyo.
Ngoku, ndiyazi ukuba abantwana abakhethwanga, kungenxa yokubonelelwa. Okubi nangakumbi kukuba, nkqu neyona demon idume kakubi ngekhe indinike inzala enje. Mhlawumbi eli hlabathi langoku liza kumbola. Masiyiyeke, andithandi ukukhumbula okanye ukuthetha ngentsapho yam ecekisekayo.
Ngoku ndilapha nhe? Yiyiphi indida. Andizange ndikhe ndiyicinge. Ngalo lonke eli xesha ndihlala esitratweni bendicinga ngamakhulu, amawaka, izigidi zezinto. Ukucinga ukuba kuphela komhlobo wakho ngaphandle. Ucinga ngabantu obabona behamba, ebomini babo. Ungena kwindima yabo nabaphi na okwexeshana kwaye uyila ukuba ungomnye wabo badlulayo-baxakekile kubomi babo bemihla ngemihla. Ndidla ngokukhetha omnye waba bafana banxibe iisuti abathetha ngeeselfowuni zabo. Ndicinga ukuba le yindlela endizenza ngayo ukuba ndingumntwana kwakhona, ndizinike ithuba lesibini.
Ndihleli nakweyiphi ikona yesitalato kwaye ndiyakuthanda ukubaleka. Ewe kuyahlekisa, ukucinga kuphuhla kakhulu kangangokuba ngamanye amaxesha ndiyaziqinisekisa ukuba ndinomoya. Ndiphakama emhlabeni ndisiya komnye wabahambahambayo kwaye okomzuzwana ndinobomi babo, ndithatha iingqondo zabo kwaye ndiyalilibala usizi olujikeleze ilizwe lam elincinci lekhadibhodi, iibhotile zewayini kunye necrust zesonka.
Ingqondo yam ibhadula kakhulu kangangokuba kuye kufike amaxesha apho ndiba nethemba elingummangaliso. Ndicinga ukuba wonke umntu uphosakele, ukuba ndim kuphela onenyani ekrwada, inyaniso ehluphayo phakathi kwefarce ngokubanzi. Ndihleka phakathi kwesitrato, ndiphephezelisa iflegi yenkululeko yam okanye impambano yam. NdinguYehova ecce homo ukusuka eNietszche, ehleka wonke umntu. Abaqondi ukuba baphila ekulahlekisweni kobukapitali.
Kodwa oloyilo luhlekisayo luhlala nje ithutyana. Xa inyaniso ikufundisa elona cala layo libuhlungu, uyabona ukuba umbono wakho awusebenzisi kangako ukuba uwedwa, utshonile, uguqe esitratweni, unyamezele ukuhanahanisa kwemiphefumlo eshushu ehamba imizimba yabo yobugwala kwisixeko esikhulu.
Uxolo malunga nomqolo, kodwa ngoku kuyacaca ukuba izinto ziyatshintsha. Ukusukela namhlanje ndizobukhumbula ubomi bam esitalatweni njengamava abalulekileyo. Ndingade ndibalise ubungqina bam kwizifundo ezinomdla ngentlupheko; Ndiza kutyhila ii-odyssey zam kwiindibano zobuchopho. Bendi "ndingenakhaya", ewe kuyavakala. Abahlobo bam abatsha baya kundiqhwabela izandla, ndiya kuziva iintendelezo zabo zokuncoma nokuqonda emqolo wam
Ixesha elide ... Ishumi, ishumi elinesihlanu, amashumi amabini eminyaka kwaye kum yonke into iyafana. Isitalato senzeka njengetyathanga elingapheliyo leentsuku ezikrakra, ezilandelelweyo kwi-infinitum. Ngaphandle kobushushu, akukho nto itshintshayo. Ewe ndinokuba mdala noko, kodwa kum ibizintsuku nje. Iintsuku ezifanayo zesixeko esikhulu apho ndenze khona ikhaya kuyo nayiphi na ikona yayo, kuzo zonke iikona zayo.
Phaya ngaphandle bonke abahlobo bam abaswele amakhaya baya kuhlala. Ubuso beSooty, amazinyo ajikiziweyo apho ndingazange nditshintshane ngegama. Singqiba kakhulu inye kuphela into esifana ngayo: ihlazo lokungafumani lifa, kwaye ayisiyonto eyonwabisayo ukwabelana ngayo. Ewe, ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba ndiyakukhumbula inkangeleko yakho nganye ebomini; Ukujonga okulusizi kukaManuel, ukubonakala okubuhlungu kukaPaco, ukubukeka okulusizi kukaCarolina. Ngamnye wabo unomthunzi ohlukeneyo wokudabuka ohluke ngokupheleleyo.
Ewe ... musani ukucinga ukuba ndiyabalilela, kunokuba ibe ngabo abaza kundililela ngumsindo. Akakholwa?
UManuel, uCarolina okanye uPaco ngebachithe isiqingatha se-euro yezipho zabo ukuze babheje kweli tikiti lelotto eliphumeleleyo. Nawuphi na kubo unokuba lapha ngoku, ekuphosela ithegi ngelixa bevula iakhawunti yezigidi ezintlanu kwibhanki yakho.
Yaye usenokuzibuza: Emva kokuba uye watyhubela kuko oku, ngaba awucingi ngokunceda abanye abantu abangamahlwempu?
Ngokunyaniseka hayi. Konke endikufundileyo esitalatweni kukuba, kulo mhlaba, akusekho mntu wenzela mntu into. Ndiya kuvumela imimangaliso ukuba iqhubeke yenziwa nguThixo, njengoko bekuhlala kunjalo.