Ndizowona kuti ndizovuta kupeza mawu atsopano omwe amalankhula za chikondi chozikika muukadaulo, ndi nzeru, mosiyanasiyana kuchokera pakukhudza kwa khungu kapena ngakhale pamalungo. Ndipo kuti nkhaniyi ndivuto lathunthu pomwe wolemba kapena wolemba yemwe ali pantchito angawonetse, ngati satayika poyesa, kuti mabuku amafikadi m'malo omwe palibe luso lina lililonse kapena gawo lazidziwitso lomwe limakwirira.
Wachinyamata wanzeru wanzeru amatenga udindo Milan kundera, ndi Beauvoir kapena ngakhale Zowonjezera. Dzina lake ndi Sara Barquinero ndipo chifukwa cha ntchito yayikuluyi wachita ndi Agnes wake wotchedwa Yna kwa iye. Zomwe Yna adatha kukhala ndikumverera, zomwe zimatsalira kwa iye mtsogolo moyiwalika ngati zolemba, zimathera pakupereka tanthauzo ku moyo wina uliwonse womwe umawoneka ngati okayikira pazosavuta pakuyesetsa kukhala.
Yna amandia ndani? Kodi nchifukwa ninji zolemba zake zachinsinsi, mbiri yokhudza kukondana kwake ndi Alejandro mu 1990, idawonekera mu chidebe ku Zaragoza? Protagonist wa Ndikhala ndekha komanso wopanda phwando Sangachitire mwina koma kudzifunsa mafunso awa akapeza kope lakale lolembedwa ndi Yna. Pali china chake pamalingaliro osavuta a mlendo uyu chomwe chimamupangitsa kufuna kudziwa zambiri.
Nkhani yake ili ndi mphamvu yopatsirana yomwe, ngakhale ili patali, imamukakamiza kuti aganizire za iyemwini, mpaka kuyika moyo wake wonse pa hiatus kuti ayambe kufufuza komwe kudzamupititse ku Bilbao, Barcelona, Salou, Peñíscola ndipo, pamapeto pake , kubwerera ku Zaragoza. Kodi ndi zoona kuti palibe amene adapita tsiku lobadwa la Yna pa Meyi 11, 1990? Kodi ndizomveka kuti chikondi cha moyo wanu sichinakuyitanani? Kodi kukondana kwakukulu uku kunayankha chiyani? Ndipo otsogola ake akhala kuti? Kodi adzakhala ndi moyo?
Ndikulankhula kwa Roberto Bolaño ndi Julio Cortázar, wafilosofi wachichepere kwambiri komanso wolemba Sara Barquinero amalemba nkhani yodabwitsa ya chilakolako ndi chidwi chomwe chimadutsa ku Spain, ndipo ndiye mwala woyamba wa ntchito yofunafuna mbiri: kubwerera ku nthano yafilosofi popanda kupereka kukwera kwachisangalalo.
Mukutha tsopano kugula buku la «Ndikhala ndekha komanso wopanda phwando», lolembedwa ndi Sara Barquinero, apa:
